My Writing: Chapter 4 . . . Audience? Purpose? What?

I’ve been puzzling on this overnight. Rereading. Highlighting the freewrite from yesterday. I just continues to feel as if there’s something wrong. I do think that my problem is the rhetorical situation of a rhetorical situation, and maybe the metacognitive nature of what I’m trying to do is just mixing everything up. I can’t figure out which situation I’m trying to work on at which moment. This really shouldn’t be that difficult. If it is just good old classic audience/purpose/voice, I should be able to figure it out blindfolded (which I may be eventually since my glasses STILL aren’t in, but I’ll post that later).

It all just feels absurd. I know all this stuff. Why can’t I write about it? What is causing all the roadblocks (other than pressure and stress)? Usually I can write under pressure, so I’m really not able to believe that that is the problem.

Maybe though this complexity is part of the reason that teachers have problems at times with what I’m talking about in the manuscript. It’s an awkward thing to think through. No wonder people have trouble with this. I need some brilliant observation to get this darned thing going :(