Today was another day. I still don’t know what I’m going to do about Lubbock, but I do know that I need to figure it out. I just feel so brainless. I want all the wrong things, and they’re not even things that I have a chance of getting; but I guess that isn’t really getting us anywhere.

I thought about trying to guess out what my requirements were for Lubbock. Maybe that would be more helpful than that list of to-do’s that I created.

• must have a/c or will die
• need to have cold water and/or the CF diet soda (ice chest? frig? something)
• must have a bed that I can pile up properly so that I don’t cough all night

I guess those are the most important things really. The rest is mostly things that I would like. The sticking points are money and location. The dorm is probably closer to the folks I would want to see, and it’s cheaper. But the dorm is least likely to fit those three needs. I don’t know what to do. I know that I will need more hotel rooms, since it’s a 2-day drive each way. I know that it’s pricey when you add up all the money. And I left out the privacy issues. Communal showers are not my thing. Really they’re fairly impossible for me given how much I hate myself.

Everything that I really need points to the hotel. The things that I want point to the dorm. Hell.

I should just give up. I’m useless at conferences anyway. stupid me.