I managed to go to work, and I have mostly cleaned off the desk. We have to put all our belongings up on our desks before we leave for the December holiday break because they have the carpets cleaned while we’re all gone. I think it took the majority of the day just to get back to the desk again. I still feel very rudderless.

I went in late and left early, though I left early because of an appointment for my hair. My grays are all hidden again, for whatever difference that makes. It needed cut more than anything, so it’s probably happier now.

I may be entering a special dark period. I just don’t seem to have any focus or to know what I should be doing. I have just felt like going to bed for several hours now, which is really uncharacteristic for me. I feel like I’m falling apart with all the hand problems. I managed to get an appointment with a resident on Monday, rather than waiting till the 19th for my regular doctor. It’s so incredibly painful if I move my fingers the wrong way. It can’t be normal. I think it’s tendinitis, but there has to be something I can do to help it get better. Bedrest maybe. Hmm. maybe that’s how I can justify going to bed so early. I dunno what’s wrong with me.