Worked on the Tuesdays lesson, but didn’t finish. Mostly I spent the day being angry, pissy, and mad. I seemed to have everything go wrong at work today. Everything. And on top of that, I suffered horribly from dysmenorrhea all day and all night and every moment and I want to take a billion, zillion drugz. (Note the use of a scientific name for things makes them sound worse so that other people will feel even sorrier for you).

Okay, seriously, not quite everything. Duck is now wearing a rabbit costume, complete with cotton tail; and my mother sent me flowers for Easter. I just seemed to have all the real work things go wrong. When the various NCTE websites began stopping this afternoon, I began packing. Went by Great Harvests for unnecessary loaves of bread that I have gorged upon. Went to Pages and used one of my gift certificates to buy these:

• Whale Talk (need to find out about the censorship issue)
• The Worry Web Site (for my collection of tech in child/YA lit books)
• Speak (cuz I never got around to it)
• Click here: (to find out how i survived seventh grade) (again for the tech collection)
• After (cuz it seemed so topical given Red Lake)

Now I just need to find time to read all of them, and the dozens of other books over there on the bookshelf.

Watched most of Possessed (1947)
(“It’s pain that made her this way. Only through major pain and suffering beyond belief can we change that.” and “‘I love you’ is such an inadequate way of saying I love you. It doesn’t quite describe how much it hurts sometimes.”)

Then watched most of The Philadelphia Story
(“I’m such an unholy mess of a girl”)

I finished The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big Round Things this evening. I looked at Love and Other Four Letter Words when I was at the bookstore, since I liked The Earth and was so close to finishing, but I just wasn’t up for a divorce story right now. I can always get it later. It’s not like I’m miserly about my book buying, as the 12+ sagging bookcases can attest.

When not watching TV, I have been the eating machine. Something is seriously wrong with me. I think I have eaten everything in completely senseless ways today. And I’m still not happy about it. I seem to be eating my way toward something, and I am just not finding it.