Troublesome Mr Hankey

Shutting down the computer. Time to hit the road soon. Updates as possible.

The housesitter is set. Most of my stuff is loaded in the car. Everything else is gathered around and waiting to be carried out. I got my Christmas cards taken care of. Washed some more clothes. Dishwasher is ready to be run. I have an early morning wake-up call set up. And beyond all that, I’m not all stressed as I was last night. Things feel much smoother at this point. Delaying a day, intentional or not, seems to have been a wonderful idea.

“All or nothing is easy. Learning to have just a little bit is discipline.”

So much for leaving town today. I’m such a moron. I wasn’t done packing around 2 AM, but I decided that I was really tired. So I laid down, completely dressed, thinking that I would rest just for a few minutes. Lights all on, dishwasher standing open, TV on. I woke up at 10:30. Lights all on and so forth. Pretty much as I left it last night. Except one thing. I found all my clothes lying on the floor beside my bed. I somehow undressed in my sleep. It’s a shame there’s no film of me getting out of my jeans in my sleep. I’d like to see what that looked like.

So I called Mom and said, “How about tomorrow?” Just as well it appears, as it’s been snowing. But I still feel like an idiot.

I’ve spent the day doing laundry, baking one more kind of cookies, running errands, trying to assemble all my junk for the trip (and catching up on the blog). I still feel like a train wreck. I don’t know why I can’t do things smoothly or why I can’t just be coordinated. Instead, I’m a wandering moron. I’m just tossing things in willy-nilly. No planning. I don’t even know if I have the stuff that I need any more. I don’t really know what it is that I do need. I did manage to fill up the gas tank and stop the mail. At least I have accomplished that much. Not that anyone is really rejoicing over such minor accomplishments. I hate myself. I’m never able to do things right.

In my procrastination, I fiddled with the iTunes Signature Maker. It was set to create the sig with the songs that were played most often. I created a new sig for today that is based on the songs played most recently—which turn out to be all Christmas songs. I guess I have to get back to figuring out my life now…

My travel plans are such a mixed-up mess. I thought I had to wait till Monday to get everything done and because of other things that are going on. Now I’ve learned that the caravan to Pennsylvania has been called off because of weather. So now I’m not sure whether I should try to leave in the morning or wait or what. I’m so confused. It did clear up some work things for me, since I just finished all the immediate stuff and didn’t let things drag out. I was going to try to finish another lesson today, but time just got so mixed up. We had our interdepartmental get-together today (aka the lunch bunch). The idea is to do some cross-pollination and keep one another informed about what’s going on. It was also the cookie exchange, AND we had to fetch food from downtown for the meal. It should have been simple, but it turned out to be a major mess, mostly the fault of the restaurant. It was 2 pm before we got to sit down and even consider the ReadWriteThink stuff that we wanted to accomplish. I finally just gave up and finished everything on hand after I talked to the family and found out that they had changed their travel plans. If I can work in Virginia, I can get out of here sooner. Still, I don’t see how I can leave in the morning. Just not enough ready to go. I feel so scattered and confused. :( I don’t know why I can’t organize my life. I’m such a mess of a human.