{"id":737,"date":"2007-04-26T19:12:00","date_gmt":"2007-04-26T23:12:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/?p=737"},"modified":"2013-08-03T02:25:44","modified_gmt":"2013-08-03T06:25:44","slug":"things-ive-come-to-understand-because-of-416","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/2007\/04\/26\/things-ive-come-to-understand-because-of-416\/","title":{"rendered":"Things I&#8217;ve Come to Understand Because of 4\/16"},"content":{"rendered":"<ul>\n<li>I love my brother-in-law as much as my brother. I&#8217;m sure I have for a long time, but I didn&#8217;t realize it consciously till 4\/16.\n<li>Feeling secure isn&#8217;t about locking all the doors. It&#8217;s about feeling I don&#8217;t have to and I&#8217;ll still be okay.\n<li>I know what it&#8217;s like to have an asthma attack now, and I know that there are two Virginia state police officers who are the nicest men in the world. Thank you for taking care of me when I broke down with that asthma attack.\n<li>I have learned that a poet&#8217;s words can give a community a path out of their sadness. I had no idea a poem could ever be adopted so thoroughly. Literature is a powerful thing.\n<li>I found that I have compassion for a mass murderer. What he did was horrible, but I&#8217;m glad the Va Tech community found a place for a Hokie Stone for him in the memorial.\n<li>I understand what it was like to want a gun. For a day, I wanted a gun, and I wanted to know how to shoot it to defend myself. [You&#8217;re all safe; the feeling passed.]\n<li>I still feel safe on campus. At 1:30 AM Friday, I was walking around by myself. I have not let someone take that away.\n<li>There are times when knowing that everyone in my family is physically safe isn&#8217;t enough.\n<li>I know which people in this vast world really care about me. They IMed or emailed on 4\/16 to check on me. One of them even showed up outside my office building to give me a hug on the 17th. Some of them are still checking on me. Some people still haven&#8217;t said a word. The categories of who does and doesn&#8217;t care about me have become very transparent. [edit: This was misread as indicating that I have\/had a list of names. I don&#8217;t\/didn&#8217;t. 5\/15\/07]\n<li>That I&#8217;ll never understand and I desperately want to know why.\n<\/ul>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I love my brother-in-law as much as my brother. I&#8217;m sure I have for a long time, but I didn&#8217;t realize it consciously till 4\/16. Feeling secure isn&#8217;t about locking all the doors. It&#8217;s about feeling I don&#8217;t have to and I&#8217;ll still be okay. I know what it&#8217;s like to have an asthma attack [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-737","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-journal"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/pqzI8-bT","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/737","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=737"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/737\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17225,"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/737\/revisions\/17225"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=737"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=737"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tengrrl.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=737"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}