I managed to get the rest of my stuff packed up and wrangle it out of my room by about 10:30 this morning, a full 30 minutes before I had to :) Unlike my messy navigation to Chicago on Tuesday, I returned to Champaign without ever looking at a map. I got home around 1:30, unloaded the car, unpacked some stuff, and wisely took an afternoon/evening nap from 3 to 7. Finished up some writing this evening, so now I can officially call my conference time over.
There were so many people whom I didn't get to spend much time with. That's probably mostly my fault for being cheap, eating peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and minute rice in my room rather than going out for meals. That and my own stupid lonely behavior, sitting alone tends to make you alone. Such an idiot. I keep asking myself if I wouldn't have been better off spending that $1200+ on a new mac rather than on a hotel bill. It's not that I didn't love seeing the people whom I did see, but I'm thinking that maybe I'm no longer a fit for CCCC. Maybe I should have saved that money for Lubbock or Columbus or something. My brain is such that I rehash and rethink and mope and weep; so I'll probably still be questioning this weeks from now.
I do know that it would take an act of Congress for me to go to CCCC NY. There's something about NYC that just scares and overwhelms me. The world is better off without me there. I guess I have to get back to my regular life and figure out what to take to work tomorrow.